I wrote a piece several years ago for a wonderful website called “Inspire Me Today”. I wrote it while my now deceased husband was still alive and we were fighting for his life. It is being reposted today and I hope you will revisit it by clicking here
As I reread the piece it made me reflect on how much as happened since I wrote it and how my view of the world has sharpened over time. Even though Jim did not survive, our collective belief in ourselves, our family, our strength, and our knowledge that Jim would be healed in some way has not changed. Our resilience got both Jim and I through some incredibly hard times. Jim had chronic neurological Lyme disease that expressed itself with overlapping ALS-symptoms. It got to the point that Jim could no longer walk, move, talk or breathe on his own. Yet through these years Jim managed to touch people, to smile when friends showed up, to be present for our children. His will was incredible and he survived longer than many physicians thought he would because of his belief in himself. I juggled a job and raising children, managed to keep our family functioning as a family, and spearheaded Jim’s care because of my belief in self, lifted up with God’s help, and supported by many loving family and friends.
During the end of Jim’s life a friend said something profound to me that helped me realize that regardless of whether Jim would be healed while on Earth, it was guaranteed he would be healed after death. In heaven, Jim is healthy again. Our belief in self and our belief and faith in God supports that inner resilience and can make reality happen here or after in heaven. My super power is still found within – it has taken a beating, but the joy I can feel for life and my children has been highlighted more brightly because of the pain of what we went through. Not in spite of, but because of….. the secret super power is still present in full force – helping me carve a new path of my own choosing.
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Traveling Troubled Times 